you lied to me
you lied to me
and in return
i lied to you
and it's just
been going round
in a circle of lies
because if i
accuse you of
lying to me
i have to admit
that i lied to you

and i don't want to
i want you to tell me
that i made you angry
and say to me all those
things you said about me
then i could tell you
how badly you hurt me
because i've spent all this time
thinking we were friends
and defending my love for you
to people who have no idea
how much you mean to me

but when i heard what you said
i couldn't believe that you said it
i couldn't believe that someone
who was supposed to love me
could be so heartbreakingly cruel
there are some insults i can take
because sometimes they ring true
but the words you chose hurt me
more than you'll ever know
because i am none of the
things you said about me

i want to be able to tell you
how awful i am because i lied
but i probably never will
because i don't want to admit
how weak i am on the inside
i want to continue being on that
pedestal you put me on
so unwillingly
because i like the view from here